These Days....

These days are crippling. I don't know if it was from partying this weekend or just what was going on for me but I feel like a train wreck when I'm not doing something. Anything really. It could very easily have been seeing old friends or just anything but the silence is killing me. Not being in North Carolina is killing me I don't know what's going on or how just about anyone is. I'm going to make an effort to call home more but I don't know how that'll effect me. Will talking to Mom for 30 minutes be a good thing or bad thing. I've come so far and feel like this is going to be probably the hardest stretch so far because I get off of work at 3:30 so now there is more time. More time to fill sitting in my apartment doing nothing sitting around. Staring at facebook for hours on end. That may be what does it the most I see how everyone is doing back home and wonder how come I couldn't have that there? Laziness? Probably, for now though I think it will be back to rather early bedtimes for me as for whatever reason I'm just really feeling heavy today.